Unexpected blessings

What a dream life to obey, the inklings of the Holy Spirit and to see the fruit of obedience.My will creates havoc, fulfilling the life Jesus planned out for me, alongside His planning out of every living thing- amazes me. Why do I try to control this life? Being a follower is much easier than being a leader, because being a leader means you pave the way for other people. If I follow Jesus, I let all the bushes and branches whack Him first he ha!It is already prepared and I am opening the boxes He created.
                          On Saturday I went half day to the Alleluia Dance retreat, where I was surrounded by amazing strong women who mothered and pampered me, while showering me with encouragement. One of the songs I learned went " How can 5 loaves and 2 fishies make, 12 baskets of food." I loved the child like approach to learning about a story in the Bible through singing. The next morning I decided to skip to John 6 and 5. What do you know! It talked about the 5 loaves and 2 fishes song that fed the 5,000! I love the coinciding passages. Then I read Jesus's questions "'Where shall we buy bread for these people to eat?'" I could picture Jesus's smile, thinking- "If you only knew what I can do, it would surprise you. If you would only guess outrageous possibilities like a childs way of thinking." The text after only made me laugh "He asked this only to test him [Philip], for he already had in mind what he was going to do." Oh Jesus's smile of knowing, His eyes glittering and Him ready to boost the faith of the disciples. The beauty of Jesus's testy/challenging personality that wanted to prod the best out of those He loved. The same goes for us- What do we believe God can do? Because the answer to this question can be easy- He can do anything. Can we believe that He will work out our relationships if we ask Him to? Can He cover our finances? Can He answer our prayers?
          He answered many of mine through the Club Hope "Hope and Freedom" event that is all about exploiting human and sex trafficking. Those who I had been praying for at Ventura College came to the event and watched the worship dance God gave me to give to Ventura College. It blessed many and those people came to talk and were drawn to the group of Club Hope. Many want to belong to a place and we drawn many "outcasts" in by a simple invitation of coming to lunch or offering them help with something. It made me tear up seeing the ready hearts that had been soaked in prayer, reaching out to others with the same passion as mine. Ministry through conversation arose and God, I wish I could hug you God- the fact you died for each of these persons. You Jesus, were all about the outcasts and misunderstood because you could identify. I hope and pray the dance gave you glory. Seriously, what does glory do for you? Does it really elevate your character or being? Does it puff up your head with air, with that one discouraging comment that then pokes the hole and all the air you had worked so hard to get from others to puff you up, escapes? It is so much fun being an instrument because like a trumpet the air goes through it and doesn't get stuck anywhere he ha  sss! We are mirrors, glory reflectors. Whatever glory is given to me bounces off of my mirror and beams to God.
              Enough of my thoughts. Let me hear what you think glory for yourself does that is positive. Or you cannot say anything.

What is instore

Dear Followers,
                     There has been a lot of action the last few days. Ended my 4 day a week job on Friday. One of the girls I watch, was in my room and wanted me to play the guitar. We got down to "Father Abraham" emphasizing "I am one of them and so are you" and expended much energy with our various body parts flinging around till we landed on our cabooses exhausted. I forgot how much fun we can have in simple songs that lead us to larger ideas. The truths we looked over and memorized as children are given greater depths when the Lord brings specific things to our attention.
                    This happened thursday and that night my sister, a friend and a brother all went to Ventura Healing rooms to get prayer. This woman looked at me and said "You are a daughter of Abraham" and told me to look up Deuteronomy 28 talking about all that being children of Abraham promises to us. Christians are grafted into the Jewish inheritance of them being the chosen people through Jesus of course. He was the Jew that made faith available to every person. Isn't that wonderful! It didn't occur to me the pattern of Abraham till that night.Then in my personal study the next morning I had been syncing with John 7 and 8. Later in chapter 8, verse 31 was titled " The Children of Abraham"  NO COINCIDENCES WITH GOD.  It beautifully written using the Jewish culture of the son keeping the slave. If the "Son sets you free, you will be free indeed"- the Son has set us free! We are free indeed. Jesus is describing himself being the son- but He lets the Holy Spirit reveal to the Jews this truth. Because the Jews had not received the revelation from the Lord they could not understand. I thought hmmm that is tricky Jesus because you were referring to yourself. I don't know if I would have caught on that quick either. Jesus was an intriguing speaker. Would you have understood? After you read the passage tell me what you think:)

Before leaving

As of tomorrow it will be 2 weeks before departure. I am struggling so much mentally with confusion, for I want a reason why my physical body is being so unpredictable and what it is saying with its symptoms. Are doctors decoders of what is going on in our bodies? Lately I want to be so identified with Jesus and want all of Him. Yet I ask- Did you ever struggle with sickness? Oh yeah you were God so I don't think so, yet you were 100% vulnerable like a human. Arguments rage in my head with questions- Satan? Emotions? Sickness? I being mentally top heavy and needing to just not think? Japan, what about Japan? Where is peace again? God presses prayer and more prayer. Hiding me in the shadow of His hand and purposefully not revealing the future or else there would be no need for the word adventure or surprise.God is showing me how difficult it is to follow Him- yet His grace, HIS grace, HIS GRACE is sufficient for insufficient people!
Ahhhh!!!!!!!!! When wanting to be hard on myself He says GRACE
 when wanting to beat another person up physically or verbally He says GRACE
when wanting to pick on myself or others He says GRACE
 as the war wages in my soul to do the right decision He whispers GRACE
 when I am in a minute of pitch deafening darkness He yells GRACE.
When I see Him on the cross saying "I did this for you, to extend you GRACE" this is when I fall face down. Like Ezekiel, Daniel, and major prophets.
So much growth before leaving. I keep telling Satan- whatever this sickness is, it is not enough to dampen my fire and fervor for the Lord so I will enjoy the day I get to see your ugly God aweful face underneath my feet. Kapeeesshhh? Oh let me remind you where you'll be.... in the lake of FIRE!!!! Principalities and rulers of darkness I feel as though they follow me and try to taunt me the minute I wake up with my soulish nature that is when I instruct my heart- I walk by the Spirit and remind myself to put on my armor. My brothers and sisters let me remind you we are at WAR, don't back down now because our strength won't do a dang thing. We can do everything through Him who gives us strength, so drain me of my own and let me experience yours alone. Word, Big Words, MORE OF HIS WORD.

Being Poured Out

Oh boy! This last week has been amazing and perplexing of how much the Lord has in store for those who just follow and not question. A successful garage sale was put on and $1500 was earned! Helpers and donations flowed in and God keeps whispering "My grace is sufficient for you." People felt the presence of the Lord and many lingered just to talk and get to know what the organization and fundraiser was about. Laughing and uplifting conversation was the result after warring in prayer and against stupid anxiety!!!
Shout out to Club Hope helpers!!!! I love my sisters and brothers- the body of Christ was so unified.
That Sunday was the huge let down- My brain went ka poot.
             Kona beckons me when I look at the back of cars that have the Hawaiian bumper stickers and the tropical weather keeps reminding me where I will be. Prayer:
Japan is one of the possible/planned out reach places- wisdom and direction.
Spending time wisely
Beginning and ending ministry opportunities
Finding time to rest not just physically but spiritually.
Details! Flying- what one can and cannot bring.
Peace about how much I should be preparing dance wise.
Sweet times with Jesus and Friends before leaving.
May the God of hope fill you with all joy, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the H.S.!